Wednesday, March 31, 2010

:: something about now.... ::

it took me such a long time to update the blogs since i have a lot of task to be finished and to be hand in...
the of my time leave me no space to write...duh...after one test then it come another...
then after one assignment then came the other...in such a messy and busy schedule....i lost my bike keys....huh..i had to called my dad and luckily he is in good mood and able to send the key to me...when i met my parent ...
i felt that i miss them a lot....more than i think that i can imagine...duh...
so many thing to be accomplished yet so many thing that i feel at the same time...
thats is my life...
with little ups and downs and with bums here and there...
hectics and madness ...
lalalalala
yeah...
i do feel i grow up too...
feel little too old ...
recieving more responsibilities...
duh...
growing up...is the new term that haunt me...
yet i still grow older day by day..

- sk -


Sunday, March 14, 2010

:: i wonder ::

i wonder why every  time i open my mouth people tend to say that i have bad intention toward them.am i that evil.am i that bad.i still wonder.and everything that i did people say that i am angry towards them.do my words and behavior are that bad.when i keep my mouth shut they said i am furious at them.but actually i try my best not to talk since when i am talking i will offend them.i wonder am i not good enough..
or i am the one that do not fit to be with them...
or it is a punishment for me...
or they did not like me...
whatever it is 
its still me...
accepting the fact that i always offend people maybe too hard...but i try my best not get people get offended from  my word and my behavior.
accepting that people that do not like me is another thing...
what did i do wrong every time i talk or every time that i do things...
or maybe everything that i said and everything that i do is bad...
i still wonder...
that am i not good enough...
or am i very evil...
that i do not have right to say anything or do anything...

-sk-